And in the meantime, I've quietly passed 8000 views and 200 posts. Thanks for keeping up with me!
When last I wrote about this, things were not so great...not terrible, just not great. Thankfully, God used a few different means to get through to me and begin the change.
First, the music. I mentioned "Lighthouse" by Rend Collective--the 'out to sea' metaphor definitely resonated with me. I was also listening to Switchfoot's Vice Verses whenever I drove in David's car. It's a great CD, and it figures prominently in the denouement of this story. But at the moment, I was listening in snippets and bits. One song, "Thrive," talks about trying and not succeeding. In the back of my mind, I knew the current attitude of "let's get through the day, maybe the next will be better" wasn't really how I was supposed to operate. I just reread the lyrics, and they really capture how I felt.
Next up: the words.