After writing the last blog post, I was reminded of a song I'd heard a few weeks ago on the radio, and I looked up the lyrics. It's by David Crowder, and the end of the chorus says, "Earth has no sorrow
That heaven can’t heal." When I first heard it, I thought it was a beautiful song, but the truth is, I'm not in heaven, and there is a lot of sorrow relating to adoption here on this earth, right now. And instead of finding it comforting, I felt a little sad (and maybe even bitter) that I still had to deal with all this sorrow right now.
Fast forward a week, and I'm driving home, listening to the radio...and this song comes on. And just to make sure I got the message, after I listened to it, I switched to another station and it was playing again. It's a good reminder that God, the compassionate and gracious One, completely understands the sorrow I feel...about adoption, about missing out on Titus as a baby, about not having him here with me. God understands more than I ever will.